Pati Patni Aur Boss – Part 3

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Part 3

 

 

It’s been 15 days of marriage and today also I stand where I stood before trying ways to put my words across him about this letter. So frustrating it is I have rehearsed so many times from the day I got it but every time either I forget how I wanted to convey or someone comes and I am forced eat my words. He quite understood the apprehension at the new place with new people but still when I couldn’t quite convince my own parents who know me from so long how would these unknown people would understand my view.

 

I had tried to convey to my parents 2 years back that I would want to work in a place where I would make a small niche of my own not where people put you under a protected shell. You can’t share your views openly nor could you actually accept with them but then still you keep quite thinking you know the best for you. If everything we learn is only best when would we know what is good or bad, our thinking would be whatever we do is best. I had wanted to be on my toes but was pushed under the shelter of my papa’s friends company thinking that way I stayed protected.

 

From past one year they were looking for my suitor and my 3rd interview my status was changed from single to fiancé of my patidev. We met at quite a few occasions before our engagement also for shopping of clothes & rings; and one of the brief coincidental things when he had come to visit a nearby place for a conference & I had gone to buy some accessories for my dress. Then we had spent a little time over a coffee in the cafe shop that evening.

 

And once the engagement was done he had passed a gift pack to me attached to it was his business card as well. This led to the start of little talks & also an initiative to understand each other. I feel a bit guilty that I couldn’t share it with him even after so many days. Initially it used to be what are you doing today types of talks then when the preparations started we used to converse about the happenings of each other house kinda of we built the gaps where the parents were having hesitation to discuss it with the each other.

 

He had cleared everything about his schedule and where we will go and for how many days. We had hardly met and hardly talked after engagement all thanks to his busy schedule and my turmoil about how to tell them what I wanted. When I had gone for the interview I so wished to inform him but I couldn’t gather courage to do that.

****

Arjun was the incharge of the planning the trip as he was sure we would even attend the marriage & also enjoy our time at that place. Boss had given as plenty of work to complete even in his absence and to make it to the wedding itself with that schedule was difficult but there was a sliver lining as boss will not return just after his wedding but after few days which will give us enough time to keep the schedules. As he was known for his travel plans here we were Adi, Sasha & Arjun with our families aboard to vacation in the name of boss’s marriage.

 

When we had reached the venue we were welcomed by big big board designed in vibrant flowers indicating the aura of the respected families. On the board was Maan Singh Khurana weds Hamsa Nandi. We hardly were present for the function as we were more interested in going to other places than being here in the crowd but this same crowd helped us to escape from the venue. But even after escaping from there one person’s eyes did caught our little run away mission & that was our boss, who is ready to grill us with the questions on projects which were assigned to be finished in his absence. We could only hope that atleast now his mobile may ring & he is asked to go back to his home but looks like till now this lion is not tamed to be under someone else control.

****

I sat on the bed caressing the sheets remembering him while my eyes went towards the frame which my friends had gifted me no… No our wedding my fingers lingered on design etched on the edge of the frame. There was no picture within the glass frame, I pout looking up complaining to my babaji “Why is it happening with me? My wedding pictures & that is still not with me. If someone visits our home what will I show who is my pati dev, he is always busy. You know na how we spent our time half of the time he would be only thinking about his work. Ufff please making him look at your favourite kid”

“You know babaji I even have decided which snap will go into which frame. In reception I was dressed in pink choli and he was in his black suit. He had held me with his one hand on my waist while my left hand rested on his shoulder and right was placed right below the rose which is tucked beside his heart. And making everyone clear to move out he is mine.”

I was looking up and complaining to my babaji when I felt something soft touching my back of the neck which supported me to rest and continue my nagging “where was I, yes our snaps but more than that this problem exists. Babaji tell me give me a single opportunity to tell him about this letter.” I keep the frame & take the letter in my hand.

 

“What is there in this letter that you want to show me?” He asked taking the letter from my hand

“You came, when did you come? I will get you some snacks & tea.” I try to make an excuse & leave but was that a easy task to get away from him that too without his wish as he held my hand pulling me back and pushing me into the balcony and he stood blocking my way as he pulled out the letter from the envelop. “Babaji, please make sure this is not my last time I am talking to you; save me today; just once for today. I will not ask for anything more today.” I was so busy with murmurings that when I looked back to see his reaction he was not at all present in the room.

“Geet you are gone today, Babaji” I look up again “I told you not to give letter to him directly atleast you should have talked to him but what can I do if he took it from my hand. Don’t you remember what mama had told you:

“Geet, you will have to think about others before your own self. You will be the daughter-in-law, where everyone will look up to you, where you will be expected to handle everything perfectly. I have no doubt that you will excel and win everyone’s heart but for that you should just stop all your childish acts.”

“Even mama knew where I will fall short & that’s what happened. Geet see what you have done. Babaji, don’t make my patidev mad on me please.” I shoot out prayers again before heading towards the kitchen to get his chai.

****

 I came out from my room thinking about the letter in my hand & straight away entered the place where I always get solace & also solutions to my problem. My thoughts came to halt when I heard the lady in front of me speaking “What happened? Where are you lost son? I didn’t know you will remember me after your marriage too?”

“Maa, what are you telling, I will always come here even if you want it or not. And don’t tease me, I am not in the mood” I replied while I lay comfortable in her lap.

Next moment I felt something cold touching my scalp & how could I not recognize that my Maa was applying oil while massaging to cool my over burning head of mine. She enquired “what the problem, did you fight with Geet.”

Before she could say anything else I pass the letter to her & the immediate response came from her “You don’t want her to work.”

“Maa, I always wanted her to stand like how you were to Dad, leading our company as co-MD along with me but here she wants to work as a trainee in Keerti designs.” I complain to her on non fulfilment of my dream.

“Beta, we started a small business so it was easy for me to help your Dad from the beginning but now our company is a large one which she may not be able to handle this without required experience. And our own staff would not be that co-operative when you start giving importance to your wife when she isn’t that qualified to manage them. Therefore I suggest let her acquire the knowledge about how things works here in Mumbai. And once you think she is ready you both can work together.”

“Oh, Maa you are life saver… I will inform Geet now only.” I started to leave but was stopped by Maa.

“I guess you don’t have to tell her.” I was surprised why she stopped me, that is when I heard Geet speak. “Thanks Maa.”

I turned back to see her all dazzling with that smile on her face & a tray with 2 cup of tea in her hand which I took happily while I settled back next to my maa but not before winking at her unknown to my first lady love.

Jeevana.

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Incredible Fusion – Part 8

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 Part 8

 

Seminar finished & I don’t exactly remember what all I have to say. Seeing my capabilities with words they had given me a small part. Was that a 5 min material which I finished it in 2 minute or was that only a 1 minutes one for which I too 2. But whatever it was that ended without much hanky panky. Well one hurdle was crossed & the other awaited. Yes the group discussion would start in a while, groups were made. Pari, I & few other class mates were selected and made the group. The topic was read out it was “Myth”.

 

 

First to start was Pari “God is a Myth.”

 

With that few started to oppose it & many started to agree with it. But when I heard what all they were discussing I couldn’t stop my self from putting my view in it.

 

“How could you say that God is a myth” I questioned.

 

“If he was there then people would not have suffered unnecessarily, take your example are you not an orphan… why?? because God took away your parents that too in a natural calamity which was controlled by God.” Pari replied.

 

“It was not the God who controlled these calamities they are done by the people who are posses the power to protect the nature and people in this world.” I counter replied.

 

“Oh you are a beliver of those grandma bedtime stories in which God entrusts some power to three people who were termed as guards of the earth but these people quarrelled among themselves to attain the supremacy over the human beings. If only one is left they would be invincible who could be termed as equal to God.” Pari questioned.

 

The whole discussion was heating up between Pari & Maan and everyone present there were just a mute spectators as they didn’t know where it all would go to. Some had heard these stories in there childhood from there elders but then with time all these things were termed as only story.

 

“Yes I am a beliver of it but that is not the whole truth what all things they would have to undergo for being a guard is not known to many. Life span of these persons would be more than 400 years which they should be spent away from everyone if those powers are entrusted. These powers would be there curse but also a boon, which could be used to restrict many calmaties. And humans never get to know what things were averted but can only know & rememeber when these gaurds fail. Yes they fight among themselves but are these fights for gaining supremacy or to gain freedom from those things is still a mystery which none have been able to know it till now.” I said.

 

I would have said many more things but I was stopped by the sapphire eyed girl who pleaded me through her eyes to not say a word more and how could I utter a single word after that. My tongue was now tied with her plea so I let every other person to continue with the discussion and in no time the hour flee so did the students from the class.

 

 

This was the last class for the year and students would forget about all these talks is what I could wish for as many were worried about their individual exams or was excited for the farewell party of the seniors which the juniors had organised for. I don’t know whether I blabbered more than required or was my speech revealed more than necessary things.

 

Once the class was dispersed Geet marched to Pari questioning “What was that, why were you guys arguing in middle of a discussion.”

 

Pari responded “He started” pointing all the blame towards me.

“I know who started what even I was here only. Now do you think about yourself Maan what were you doing talking all these stories.”  Geet turned towards me questioning but she was shocked and continued “Now where did he go?” as I was not there standing but had started to move out of the class saving my self from there questioning eyes.

 

****

 

Today is the farewell party girls were dressed in red & white combination where as boys were in red & black combo. For a change juniors had planned to rag the seniors on there own farewell which was led by Pari & group, well I knew whose idea this would be. Time has changed so had the relations too in past 10 months seniors have become more friendly and supportive, thus playing pranks with them would not be a trouble and anyways they are leaving the institute so the coast is clear for fun.

 

Party was in the open air hall in the grounds of the college which had a stage at one end where Geet was speaking to Pari who stood beside her with today’s event manager & at the far end was the fountain where I stood gazing her every move. She looked angelic in that white salwar of hers as blue veil adored the slender creamy neck. Yash was running behind Pari helping her out with all his love and I was standing away from everyone feeling glad that atleast there are people whom I would love and they are infront of me.  

 

People dressed in vibrant colors were already to enjoy & have fun as the party was about to start. Whereas things don’t happen as you wish for and who knows that better than me and exactly the way I had the intrusion there was a sudden hassle alround the place everyone were running into the college that’s when I witnessed the tornado coming towards us.

I stood waiting the tornado to come to me as what can it do to me carry & through me somewhere that’s it right. However when it was just a yard away from the ground when it stood still as if something stopped its way. When I look around the ground there is no one present but my eyes stopped at one place where a girl lay may be unconscious and it didn’t take a minute to know who that was as she is Geet only girl who was in her blue while everyone was in red & white.

Jeevana.

Incredible Fusion – Part 7

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 Part 7

What happened was something has happened with me many times before too when ever I have left my confines things has gone messy. That is the reason why I have to be alone & none are allowed to be with me. My mother left me giving birth to me to live in this world all alone; my father was there only till that another natural calamity which shook more than half of the village when I was a small kid. From that time all I have led is a life alone each day was like a year or even more than that.

 

 

Relatives were there to support me but even that didn’t last for more than few days as they would fell into deep troubles due to me. So I had spent most of my life in an orphanage far away from everyone who was my family once. This was my curse which I am still burdened with. And today that has spread to Geet, she fell the moment I thought to ignore my curse but it was all present to remind me of the repercussions if avoided.

 

 

I still stood the same way gazing at her fallen state; I couldn’t gather enough courage to even check her. What if she also just left because of my mistake? It would have been better to be away than to live in guilt for becoming an endangered curse to someone else. With the sudden enormous sound of water gained the attention of Pari & Yash so they came out to check the reason for it and all they could see was Geet lying in the pool of water while I had lost my voice to tell anything to them.

 

 

I started to take my steps away from her whereas Pari was trying to revive Geet by patting her cheeks. Yash asked her to pull under the shelter first so that she wouldn’t catch cold. They tried to rub her legs & hands it was turning little blue due to chillness of water. Yash looked back at me to ask what happened but what would I reply, there was nothing to tell it was all my fault to have agreed with him to accompany Yash to her place.

 

My strides were moving fast to just hide myself away from everyone especially from those blue eyes mermaid of my life. I push all the things in front of me & put everything on fire with my own hands but would that reduce the blaze in me. Ripping of my self also didn’t reduce the helplessness in me. Why should I be compled to live a life like this with no love no happiness all alone nothing pleasing can exist around me? Why it is that anything that wants to give me bit contentment would turn into ashes before I could embrace it. Why can’t I hold a little bliss in my palm?

 

 

All I had heard was they were taking her to the nearby doctor, I so wanted to check on her but it was best with me not going near her. I waited at the shores waiting for the sun to break the darkness, which was actually trying to consume me within it. After what seems like eternity I just couldn’t wait more but wanted to know if she was fine, I decided I would only see from far & then will move out before anyone would actually notice my presence.

 

I stood at the doorway hearing that melodious voice of speaking to the doctor which was a relief till I heard there talks. The doctor was quite upset about something but what was the fault of Geet in all these things which happened.

 

“Geet, I am telling you last time you have to be careful, I can’t hide these things everytime. It was just pure luck that your friends bought you to me, what would have happened if they would have taken you to other doctor.” Doctor was scolding sternly.

 

“Doc, I would have managed it.” Geet answered meekly.

 

“Right the way you just managed it today. I have answered others as you got dehydrated but I want answers from you now? What happened & how did it happen if you had taken all the precautions.” Doc questioned.

 

“Doc, you yourself said now that I was dehydrated and that was exactly what happened too.” Geet replied

 

“Okay then be my patient for next 2 days & get your dehydration cured.” Doctor said

“2 days, what will I do here for 2 days? I am perfectly fine & I would like to take your leave now as I need to attend the class.” Replied shocked Geet on the sudden order passed by her doctor but when did she listen to others.

 

“I am your doctor Geet.”

 

“No, you are my friend, so bye.” Geet stromed out of the room after saying that.

 

There talk left me in thinking what was it that they were talking about was she hiding something or is she under some medication due to some disease. But if I question the doctor she would definitely not spit out the truth. Doctor must have known Geet for a quite a period and that’s why she was so comfortable & then also she hid the truth with Yash & Pari also that too even before she consulting Geet. I should follow her to know more but after what happened yesterday night I need to be very careful & stay away from her.

 

******

 

I have been observing her more meticulously from past few hours but nothing actual changed in her ways neither in action nor in words. Still we didn’t speak neither she nor Yash or Pari actually asked me about that night. It was as if nothing happened, don’t know what Geet said to them but they were actually being careful with Geet, making sure that she had lot of liquids. They didn’t let her give presentations in seminar also but only person who regretted that was me as I couldn’t hear her.

 

 

Yash asked me to help them in the last seminar and the group discussions for the year before college breaks for the exams so that Geet could take proper rest. I agreed but I didn’t know what I am supposed to do so he gave some notes which I had to go through & speak about them. Seminar was said to be on one of the topics in some subject which we read but the group discussion was just a practice session so that everyone would get good exposure to the presentation skills. I actually wondered what am I going to do as I had not an iota of idea how these are done but this would help Geet is all I know so I had to do it.

Jeevana.

Incredible Fusion – Part 6

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 Part 6

Surprise was the word Yash screamed making her squeal in shock but then she was happy to find her love there leaving his inhabitation self and visiting her.

 

 

“Yash is this the way you come. There is a calling bell which you could always use then why were you banging the door like that. You just scared the hell out of us.” Pari growled on Yash.

 

Yash made a sorry face while he enquired “Geet is also here.”

 

“Yes, she has not slept yet.” Pari replied. “Hey Geet look Yash is here. You want to say hi.”

 

“No… No… I mean yes hi Yash…You guys talk…  I… I will be in back yard. “Said Geet b…b…bye

 

“I don’t know why she gets scared suddenly of such little things.” said Pari referring to Geet’s action.

 

“Yash left a sigh once Geet left as he can have his little talk with Pari now without interruption. Now you will do as I say” Yash whispered.

 

Looking at them I thought they need a little more privacy so….

 

I left that place at once and started to move backwards when I heard something rather say some sound. That made me realised that the path I choose leads to the back yard of the house where Geet went. The thought that she is there was enough for me to move more faster my mind constantly warned me not to go and face at this time but when did mind had any say infront of this heart.

 

My luck was not with me today as suddenly there was lighting followed by a noisy thunder. Normally boys liked these situations where girls would be scared and cling to boys but here it was a different story as I despised rain. Seeing the pouring rain my legs frezzed at the place I was safe under the shelter in the pitch darkness where no one knew anyone would exist. Even in the most solitary life I have an angel who had descended from the heaven whom I could gaze till my hearts content.

 

Geet was in her light violet velvet suit stood admiring the sky above. I stood as far as possible but my eyes could view her from head to toe, I guess she was also standing below some shelter as there was not a drop of rain falling on her.  She was not only admiring it but also waiting for the rain to fall as the moment she stretched her palm a drop fell on it, she did the same again and again collecting the drops of the rain in her palm. It looked as if the rain was waiting for the orders of her to fall. Once it was full she let them drop on the ground making the sound like pearls were falling off from the necklace as they didnt just fall but also they had another path to follow.

She was the commander in chief imposing the flow of rain. Slowly the drops of rain increased & made its way from her shoulders to her long silky hands gliding over them to reach the small little fingers of her just before they descended to reach there fellow droplets. If that was the sight I beheld unknown to her next set of her acts just made my insides move as molten lava.

 

The water which blessed themselves touching her forehead slid through the sides measuring the length of her sleek neck before they disappeared into the fabric. The view brought him of my revive giving me a reality check about my act. I was not supposed to look at her like this minutely. She has always hid behind the mask of a meek girl and now thinking noone is here she would have let those masks off her face.

 

She might have not been this free had she known about my presence here. But I didn’t have it in me to turn back from her. This time I wanted her to decide and it would be easy on me to feel her rejection than turning back from her. With this decision I let my legs lead towards the magnetic pull.

 

I couldn’t have stepped in rain too so I stood at the rim of the shelter making my presence known to her. Passing the message towards her clearly that she is not alone to let her barriers down and baring her oneself to me. She stood in the middle, hands out stretched to let the rain drench her. Even after making my presence evident she didn’t deterred was she so involved in her own world that what is happening around, who is there beside her didn’t matter or was she giving me a treat by letting me to witness her subtle movements of unparalleled grace.

  

Rain which had drenched her whole form gave a shiny effect to her. With a determination which none could stop her to express herself today neither the rain nor my presence. She bent her back in a semi circle swinging her hands in a way that looked like a white rainbow twinkling in the moon light. Was she dancing with rain or was rain dancing with her, was she following it or was that following her moves was all I could ponder about as she and rain matched steps with eachother.

 

Unknown to me “Geet” came out from my lips it came out just as a whisper and I doubt whether my own ears heard it or not. But as the name left my lips the rain just came to end like it was waiting for me to utter and it would stop and with not a drop of rain pouring her whole concentration turned to me. I stood there waiting for her reaction, would she walk away as I do or…. I didn’t know what to expect. She slowly closed the distance between us and stood right in front of me.

 

Ik baat honthon tak hai jo aayi nahin

Bas ankhon se hai jhaankti

Tumse kabhi, mujhse kabhi

Kuch lafz hain woh maangti

Jinko pahen ke honthon tak aa jaaye woh

Awaaz ki baahon mein baahein daalke ithlaaye woh

Lekin jo yeh ik baat hai

Ehsaas hi ehsaas hai

Khushboo si hai jaise hawa mein tairti

Khushboo jo be awaaz hai

Jiska pata tumko bhi hai

Jiski khabar mujhko bhi hai

Duniya se bhi chhupta nahin

Yeh jaane kaisa Raaz hai

 

English Translation

A thing that still hasn’t come up to my lips and only peeks through my eyes,

It asks for words, sometimes from me and sometimes from you,

So that it can wear those words and come to the lips,

And so that it could be embraced by words..

But this thing is actually a feeling…only a feeling,

It’s like a fragrance floating in the air,

Fragrance, which has no voice…and about which you know and I know too.

It is not hidden from the world, what kind of a secret it is?

 

 

Her eyes held an unknown compassion which I could not understand. I felt a sudden chill spreading around me was it the dip in the temperature or was it her who was cooling my fire in me. My eyes closed for a brief second to hide the things which it may give away if I look deep into the blue ones it may questioned me anything. There were many things which my heart wanted to convey but words were just not enough to express them. Many emotions were binding me with you bring in a new flavour sweeping us into a different world. This is the riddle which could not be hidden within me or with in her or even the world.

 

I was still entranced in her when I felt her chilled hands touch my cheeks sending shiver down my body. It took only a second to ignite the fire in me; it took lot of efforts to break the shackles to let my hand to stretch so that I could feel that creamy skin. She closed her eyes to engrave the feel of me on her hand, so did I wanted to engrave it. I was just an inch away when she trembled back and before I could comprehend anything or hold her she collapsed on the ground & like how the water gushes out when the gates of the dam are opened the rain poured out on her.

Jeevana.

Incredible Fusion – Part 5

IF

 Part 5

 

There is not a single place in the college which doesn’t remind me of our encounter and just a week ago when Geet was searching for Pari near this fountain at the entrance of the college where I am standing that was the time we met again face to face to let me read her mind through her own blue eyes.

 

This time when the cover of her lashes had been shed for my view all I could see was the same mischief gleam in it. But what is she upto now, did that senior again became the scapegoat of her acts. She has been enjoying that senior’s state to an extent which none knew except me as always after every fall of his she had walked away with a winning stride. One thing which even I didn’t know was did she do anything which always landed him in trouble or was that a pure coincidence that whenever she was present he was embarrassed with one or the other thing.

 

Last time I had accompanied Yash to the mall as girls wanted to do there shopping while Yash wanted to join them and I also went along with him. Once they had roamed alround the mall we had settled down in the food court to fill the hunger of stomach. The seating arrangement was in a semi circle round the table and at one end was Geet next to her was Pari and next was Yash, after him I sat.

 

Geet started “Pari you have searched the whole mall today. So after eating we will go home & get back to our seminars.”

 

Pari replied “Still I need to buy tops from that xyz shop.”

 

“I know why you are so much into shopping today but I will not let you skip today’s study.” Geet made it clear to Pari. “I don’t want any excuses.”

 

I smiled looking at the them planning for the seminar which I didn’t even know there was I never had to bothered for any academic activity as even before I realise the need of the work it would have been done for me too. Yash was someone who used to do it for me I never did ask him for but he simple did it for me and then it become a silent treaty that he used to hand over all the assignments to me. I could have asked him the reason for it but then I never indulged in talking with anyone not even Yash, who was my hostel roommate.

 

Pari loved Yash but always gets irritated with his “I am scared attitude” college works were not an issue but handling the world or people was something he always held a back foot.  I guess this was the reason Yash always used to be with me scared to be alone, scared that he might just get into trouble and I tagged with him because he never asked any questions about me but just used to bug me with non stop talking about the college or Pari or her friend Geet. That was much more than a vital reason to actually tolerate him and his actions.

 

There was sudden hustle bustle in the food court, apparently some waiter was pushed by someone making all the food in his hand to spilled on the ground and that person was none other than our same senior who had lead our ragging session. The owner was all set to bash the waiter & dismiss him from the job as he thougt the waiter couldn’t even handle his customers properly, creating disturbance to them and also damaging his places aesthetics.

 

And this senior of ours who was having fun in this trouble just was leaving creating the mess and while crossing over the table next us the kid who sat there was supposed to have her milk in the bottle but the kid opened the cap in a way that all the milk erupted out of it spilling it all over the place along with the wetting the pants of our beloved senior in turn making him embarrass infront of all the people. At that time her eyes showed “you deserve it” look.

 

Today too her eyes conveyed the same thing to me but who deserves that, was that me or was that someone else. I was still searching for answers when a loud laughter hit my ears and that was of Yash & Pari who came running & laughing even before I could ask them they started to narrate that the gardener was having trouble why water stopped suddenly coming in his pipes while watering the plants and then he tried to twist them in all direction water gushed out like a stream which unfortunately showered on our same darling senior. 

 

Once Yash was here I moved out to our hostel when Yash again started his pleading to accompany him to Pari’s house as she had challenged him “Yash if you love me you have to come to my hime without getting scared of my owner who stayed next door. Only then I will talk to you.” Did I needed this pleadings no defiantly no, but still how would I just give in so I gave him “I am not interested” look and then I finally agreed to him.

 

We knocked at the door of the girl’s home late at 12 midnight as it was quite a distance we had to travel. There was hesitation quite visible on Pari’s face as she opened the windows to check who is banging the door at this hour. I could clearly see one was shocked while the other pretended to be shocked as she was not afraid of facing any situation. As it was a season of rain many would come inside the front yard for shelter but now it wasn’t raining either and even if it was entertaining an outsider at this hour was not safe.

 

We stood at a distance so when she checked the window none were visible, then she had a confused look thinking who banged on the door. Just when she thought to close the window and return to bed we came out of the shadows scaring her a bit as she asked who it is. But only thing she heard was her own sound and crackle sound of the dry leaves.

 

Surprise was the word Yash screamed making her squeal in shock but then she was happy to find her love leaving his inhabitation self.

 Jeevana.

Incredible Fusion – Part 4

IF

 Part 4

 

 

Change is the only thing which is constant in life and is the same thing which I am experiencing now. My sense’s which has always been active in alerting me of my surroundings has changed its allegiance. My eyes never leaves the sight of her as it only tries to find more about her while I always search to hear her melodious voice in every sound that hits my ears, I wait for the moment of slight touch of her veil every time we have bump into one another. It takes every ounce of my will to resist from tasting this forbidden fruit. She is all bent to change me as she smells like a dew drop making me to hate the thought why I hated that before.

 

The fact which I always certain about eradicating the darkness & lighting it seems to be lost with the way my life had taken a turn. My day which always used to start with the sprinting before the breaking of dawn to keep me fit and focussed has also changed. Now after sprinting I would do my exercise using fire to help me keep focus on the issue that is on the hand. Every day I try new ways with fire I would light up the edges of the stick with fire and swinging the blazing stick in different ways so as to wipe out that vision which has plastered to my eyes.  

 

That day when our eyes had met, the world around me had just ceased to exist. Those deep blue eyes held me captive in her spell that I felt I wandered into a place where every thing was so serene that I didn’t know whether I was lost before or am I getting lost now. I was looking deep into violet & green mixed pupils of her to find what all secrets that could unfold infront of me. But what I found was a haze image of person’s face which started to disturb the tranquilly of those orbs a bit later what I saw was it was not just the disturbance but vanquishing the glow with the flame of that persons mere presence which turned into my face. That was the harsh reality of mine which broke my trance and I had left the table in a rush leaving everyone to ponder anything what they wish.

 

I would now rather light up the whole place to make me remember the fact of my presence in anyones life would only harm everyone. How could I forget why I am all alone? I break one another stick that was in my hand with the rage which had only amplified the concealed fire in me. I have led lonely life because of this reason, when ever I have lost focused I have not only lost my dearest and nearest but also have felt the burnt of it my own self. How unlucky am I to even not retain a companion for even a small part of this long life. With these thoughts cruising in my mind everytime I would never know when the dawn breaks & the day starts. But with my starting ignorance with the surroundings one had not left to remind me about my college and that was Yash who used to call me with his stupid problems.

 

Exactly now I got a call from Yash making me realise the time as even the sun elevated high in the sky failed to be gain my attention as I was busy fight with the inner battle. I switched on the Bluetooth and without a second delay he started his cribbing.

“Maan do you know what is the problem with this stove the burner is not burning and I am unable to find the lighter which you were playing with last night.” 

 

That reminds me of the act of last night when I had held the light in my hand & had snapping the fingers lighting it & switching it off with my thoughts running about the past and trying to get the things straight in present.

 

“15 minutes.” I reply and make my way to start yet another day just like past 8 months but before I leave this shore I put of the fire which I had set around the place. Out of all these things against me this is one thing that I am glad of this deserted place to give me my privacy.

 

As always my eyes search that place where I had seen her on the first day but as every other day even today I couldn’t see her there maybe it was just by chance that she was here that day. I again console my heart which still wants to see her against my will. And in these 8 months every single day didn’t end without an encounter of ours but every time I shifted my course away from her as those eyes held something which could not be comprehend.  During the classes I try to gauge her reactions but she didn’t let me through her lashes making it difficult to read her.

 

Things which made these encounter possible were Yash & Pari and their budding love story. There talks left me know more about Geet, how she is, how even she came here after losing her family. How lonely she has become now and how she is coping with her life. What her aims are, how she has influenced Pari to be more focused about the future. I get to hear each and every word about them from Yash.

 

There is not a single place in the college which doesn’t remind me of our encounter and just a week ago when Geet was searching for Pari near this fountain at the entrance of the college where I am standing that was the time we met again face to face to let me read her mind through her own blue eyes.

Jeevana.