Love N Its Entry In My Life – Part 10

PART 10

Today my life just took another turn a new zeal in the heart with a tinge of fear about the future; a while ago I was in a world where my any actions might not have mattered to anyone but now even my slightest sigh brings so much of attention. A new world new relations; from now all my actions will be under scrutiny from one or the other person. My thoughts came to a halt when Maan nudge me saying that we reached our destination; my new home.

New couple stood at the entrance of the home; where everyone waited to bless them for the new journey. Ladies arranged the kalash of rice at the doorstep and aarti talli in the hand for Gruhapravesh of the new member of the family who is believed to be a form of Lakshmi. One of the ladies started saying how she should kick the kalash.

Lady: Geet you have kick this kalash so that it should reach the opposite wall; the more the rice is spread over the house the more you bring in happiness & prosperity to this family.

Geet just nodded her head in acceptance. The ladies gave her the way and pushed the kalash with her right leg and the rice spread all over the house bringing smile to all face present to welcome them. Then next Maan’s mom did the arthi & asked Maan & Geet to enter simultaneously with right foot. When they were supposed to enter some young girls stopped asking Maan to pay some tax before they allow them to get inside. Letting a sigh he paid some more tax while checking with Geet are these tax amount adjustable in his IT. For which she could just giggle and nod her head for a no as he has been paying them a lot from couple of days.  Some relative said Maan you still have to pay in many more occasions, be ready with your cash. Maan replied do I have any other option.

Sunaina (Maan’s Mother): Ok Ok now let them come inside

MG put there right foot inside simultanouesly & entered the home.

S: Geet from today you are not the DIL of this home but our daughter. You can feel free to ask anything & to tell me if my son troubles you also. She winked at Geet for which she could just look down feeling embarrassed.

S: Lets have dinner and then you guys can move to your room. Maan Geet come       

Everyone had there dinner peacefully without any teasing as Sunaina has asked not to now after that they can. While Maan was stealing glances of his wife to check whether she was comfortable or not; which was caught by Ravindra, his father. He cleared his throat to gain his attention; Maan just straightened himself.

R: Maan

M: Yes Dad

R: after dinner in my study

Maan looked at his father as if seeing him as first time without blinking while Ravindra just chukled seeing his son’s state.

R: Only 5 mins son

M: Yes Dad I will be there

Once everyone were done with dinner; ladies took Geet to the room and make her comfortable there

In the study

M: Dad you called me anything serious

R: Yes Maan it’s very serious or else I wouldn’t have called you here

M: Tell me Dad

R: Maan you need to be extra careful from today

M: I am not getting anything Dad

R: Come, sit here. Geet is your responsibility; you have to make her confortable in this house, she has left her parents house and where she has lived for all these years, it takes time for getting adjusted in a new place, she will rely on you;   And the way I see she is very shy n will not say openly what she wishes. So you need to take care of her every need or else you will have it from me. Now she must be waiting for you go

M: Sure Dad I will

In the Room

Geet was lost in her thoughts… Anticipating the night scared on how she will be able to cope up with everyone’s expectation and not to hurt him in any way. How much ever you say or consider a DIL as a daughter still at the end of the day every MIL will want perfection in all aspects. My every action be questioned … every nod or approval be examined… Will I be able to adjust into this my new home leaving behind my own inhabitations…? Babaji please stay with me and don’t make me fool in front of anyone.

Her revive was broken with the sound outside her room.

Outside:

Friends: Maan what’s the hurry lets have some talk’s man.

F2: Anyways Bhabiji would be tired after so many rituals …let her rest.

M: Ok guys let’s have some shots

F1: Oye what will you say to Bhabiji

M: I will manage that…you guys don’t worry I will have everything under control.

F2: On the outer surface itseems like that but they will have full control on us. Everyone think what can they do but we are just puppets in their hands.

F1: you are scared of your wife …laughed

F2: don’t ask yaar… Last time I was all set to show her who has the upper hand.

F1: how was the show?

F2: it backfired

There talks were disturbed by a click sound and to there surprise when they turned they saw Maan smirking and making way to his room.

F2: Oye Maan wait…We thought you are going to get us some drinks for us.

F1: looks like he got scared and running to his wife

M: well guys you know that only drink you get here is apple juice so make yourself comfortable and enjoy the night.

F1: you need to pay tax there too

M: Catch me if you can.

He just closed the door on there face and to find Geet sitting in their bed their room waiting for him. As he approached the bed Geet became conscious of every step & her nervousness was clearly seen by her movements. Her bangles would give away her slightest of her sigh to him. He slowly made his way to her while she just curled her toes and hugged herself more. He teased her by just sitting in front of her for a while, making her heart to raise its beat with anticipation of his move. Taking all his time he raised his hand to unveil his priceless possession, only to be stunned seeing her, who was more heavenly then he could have ever imagined in his dreams. His hand slowly made his way to hers just to make sure it wasn’t one of his mirages again.

M: Geet what happened you hands are freezing

G: nothing I am fine …she shuttered while still she kept her head down

Sensing her reluctance he placed his hand at her chin and made raising her face to look into those eyes which was closed but still couldn’t hide the lone drop which was all set drop from those close eyelids.

M: Geet … he was surprised to see that drop in her eye

M: What’s bothering you dear…?

G: No it’s just that nothing

M: Won’t you want to share it with me

G: It’s nothing serious

M: Anything which brings tears in your eyes is serious dear

G: I… I… was just scared as from now on … It’s all new here how I will adjust here… leaving away from my home my parents everything which was mine for past so many years… new relations new aspects of life … it always takes time to get settled into any new things… she ended with the tear which was trying to come out from a long time made way of her hazel eyes.

M: Geet … you just surprise me everytime… you never loved your parents then why are feeling sad leaving them

G: I never said that … snapped back at him… I have always loved them even they have but that were just not enough for me

M: Why do you feel like this tell me everything what you have in your mind Geet

G: But… he stopped her by placing his finger on her lips

M: Don’t you trust me to share your pains

Geet looked into his eyes which were only giving her strength to speak her heart leaving behind all the inhabitations, while Maan took her hand in hers & made him comfortable in her lap.

G: Maan promise me you wouldn’t tell it to anyone not even to my parents or yours.

M: Promise Geet I wouldn’t tell anyone.

G: From where do I start; how to put all my life in sentences. My insecurities started way back when I was kid, being the youngest in the family I was always carefree no fear for anything but only feared my dad & mama’s scolding. I am the naughtiest one in the family too. Like all I always wanted all the attention of everyone. When I didn’t use to get good marks in school I only feared for my parents scolding; I used to pray god please don’t make them scold me instead let them punish me with anything else let them beat me or some other but not those words which used to pierce my heart. How much time would a physical pain take to heal max one day, that’s bearable but not there harsh words. I knew they want the best from me, I don’t remember whether I used to put my all my efforts or not but I was never into studies. Even when my bro used to make mistakes even me & my sis were called to get the beatings without our fault, it used to be only once… kind of warning types. Fearing them I used to go them to take my share of the beating but my sis never went and she was never called again too.  Same way I was called for all the works too when be it helping my mother in kitchen or doing some household cores but my sis was never called for. I never understood that. Doing these things never bothered me but why my sis was not called for work. I came to the conclusion that I was needed only for work, only till they have some work or else I just a burden on them; it just carved in my heart. No matter how much they give me attention or treat me like anyone else, back of my mind it is engraved not to fall for this, this is illusion you can never have a life where all your wishes will be fulfilled.

M: Geet… please don’t hurt yourself by saying all these. I can’t see these tears running down your cheek all because I reminded you of your pain.

G: No Maan… let me put all these out once. I have never shared it with anyone nor have anyone felt like knowing me too.

M: Ok I won’t stop you again.

G: My mama always tell us story of her life. How they used to live with their parents & about almost everything. One day she was telling us when my sis was born my grany’s sister asked her to give my sis to her as she couldn’t conceive and wanted a child. But my mama refused her as mama didn’t want to part with her. And when she got to know that she is pregnant for me she became conscious of the third kid and all. What will people tell having 3 childrens in this centuary? But in time she was ok with everything and I was born at that time she was ready to give away to my granny’s sister as she already had my sis na… you know Maan she was ready to give away me…(sobs) me… And to her bad luck or mine my granny’s sis had adopted some other boy for another far off relative, so I was just like a ping pong ball for them. How many times I tried to make my self understand the situation that it was just that my mama wanted to help her, trying to make myself immune to this but with mere mention of this thoughtbrings so many tears in me. I tried… (sobs) tried to  brush off these thoughts but everytime when I try to accept that “I am not unwanted or burden to my parents” some or the other incidents pushes me back to this same insecurity. Please Maan help me come out of this…I am not burden for anyone right… Please (sobs).

While Maan slowly gets up and starts wiping her tears,

M: Geet you are not a burden … not for me… you are my life Geet… mine…only mine

He starts to kiss her tears off and pulls her into her embrace to sooth her with this pain which is engraved in her heart till now only because she is still a kid by heart and just wishes to be loved by everyone. Slowly he makes her lay on the bed & comes over her to wipe off all the traces of her pain. He softly places a kiss on forehead n start moving down to her eyes giving attention to every sense of her then to her cheeks while he cups her face in his hands. He places a kiss at the crook of her neck & slowly raising to give attention to her earlobe and slightly bites there. Ahhhan moans Geet. His hand struggles to remove the earring which was troubling him. Ouch …Geet wince in pain with the pull at her ear.

G: It hurts

M: then help me na…remove all these jewellery then I will continue

G: What

M: Anyways you can’t sleep with all these on. Just use the washroom & get change Its already too late, I will change here itself by that time.

G: Ok… somewhere dispointed with the turn of events

In the Washroom:

G: Babaji What timing you have na…what was the need to make me tell everything at this time that too today. All time got over in my useless story. How much he would have expected from me… now he wouldn’t do anything seeing me like this. Geet wash your eyes …see how big it has become after crying… tomorrow everyone will imagine all x-rated things and here nothing will happen. Even he wouldn’t love me now…a fresh layer of tears made their way from her eyes. After a while composing & changing herself she came out.

In the Room:

M: Geet I promise from today all these fears would vanish from your heart. It will have place for only my love. No more tears in those beautiful hazel eyes. I will fill with so much love that all your baseless insecurities would vanish from your heart. No matter what happens I will always be there for you. His eyes searchs for her who is still in washroom may be trying to pull her self back into a strong girl or trying to put a brave face on. And the sound of the door makes him turn towards her. But he wonders how to make her comfortable & still love her. Not getting any idea.

M: Geet come you must be tired take some rest.

Geet thought making a face& looking up: Babaji I told you na … I won’t talk to you … you made me land in this mess now. Chodo ab kya kar sakthi hoon main. Aapne pair par khud kuladi mari hai to bugtho.

Maan switched off the lights & settled himself at the right corner of the bed while Geet too turned left n settled at the left corner of the bed. Both lost in how to ask the other. Making up Maan turns slowly moves towards her, places his hand over her waist and hugs her from behind while placing a kiss at the back of her shoulder. Like getting the fruit after a long wait she just moaned his name, giving away all reluctance she turns around and hugs him while getting all the right response from her. He starts to know her in a way like no one. While slowly both get rid of all the barriers only to become one in all senses for a new begining.

A Night In A Den

Maan: Geet Geet hurry up we have to reach before night

Geet: Yes let me pack some food for the journey then we can start

M: How much more Geet, Its just 4 hours drive

G: Thats why I am packing them

M: As you wish, my lady saying so he hugged her from back and while one hand started make patterns on her waist and the other pushed her hair aside to have a clear view of her back.

G: hmm left her moan as he placed a kiss on her nape, as her legs felt numb and leaned on the kitchen slab

Thud spoon fell to bring them back to the reality.

M: You look beautiful in this sari saying so he pecked her red cheeks

G: Aren’t we getting late

M: Do we have to go, we can be doing something more interesting here

G: Yes we have to it is Adi’s wedding

M: Poor Adi is all set to fall in a well

G: what was that? You think you have fallen in well

M: Offcourse…not saying he pecked her again

G: I seriously started to think that you do these things to divert me.

M: But you don’t seem to get diverted

G: You want to know why

M: Why

G: I know my man inside out.

M: Oh really

Maan started to come close to her, while she started to move back not able take that gaze on her as it was making her weak. Her back collided with the wall behind while he plastered himself on her. Intense desire in his eyes made her to close her eyes getting lost in his essence; she started to breathe heavily while his hands roamed freely on her making her lost in his own world and she felt herself light and she snapped open to see herself plastered to him and carrying her to the car. She could only hide herself in his chest hearing his heart beating for her.

M: Let me get the bags saying so he left her in the car to give her time to come back to reality

G: How does he make me drown in his love thought remembering the moments in the kitchen

Maan got the bags and came behind the wheels and rolled out of the pathway

M: Geet stop inviting me

She just blushed more hearing him.

M: Now guide me how to reach the venue

G: Why you forgot the route you took me last time?

M: When I have my navigator why should I remember anything?

G: You are making fun of me …makes a sad face

M: If I am making fun of you means it’s making fun of me only; misty. Now don’t remember what happened last time.

G: Why shouldn’t I remember it we had such a lovely adventure

M: You want experience the same today too

G: how about something new but not today at least we should attend Adi’s wedding in time not like in engagement.

M: As you wish and be ready for next time

For which Geet just shies and started to remember what had happened when they set out for Adi’s engagement

Flash Back

Maan enters the home all tired from the day’s works only to find his wife Geet sleeping on the couch waiting for him.

M: Geet Geet

G: oh you came. Just freshen up by the time I will heat up the food

M: Yes maam

G: You started again, go fast please I am very hungry and sleepy too

Maan pecked her once and ran to freshen up, while Geet started to serve the food in a plate.

At the dining table, while having dinner

M: Geet our project manager Adi, you met him the other day is getting engaged this weekend. Pack everything required for that we will leave in the evening.

G: Where is the engagement?

M: raksurnagar village, about 350 kms from here. Its better we reach there a night before the function

G: Okay. And we will leave after lunch from there right

M: Geet near that village there is a cottage; let’s spend some time there too. I have made myself free for 4 days it will be all yours. I know it’s very less but I couldn’t accommodate more than that

G: Really we are going out together

M: Sorry dear. With my new project I could not take you to any where recently. Its only 2 months of our marriage and I..

G: Shh.. You don’t have to say sorry; I know how important this project is for you.

M: But still..

G: Enough have dinner first afterwards we can talk.

M: Afterwards we won’t have time for talking na my honey bunny

G: Maan …let me have my food peacefully.

M: Yes you should have proper food; you will require as much energy as possible

Geet could only turn red with his shameless talks and moved to bedroom for a long night

Flashback ends
M: Geet where are you lost; Why are you not being yourself I am missing your talks

G: Nothing I was just remembering last times journey. You want something to eat; I have packed some fruits I will give while you continue your driving

M: I rather eat you

Geet waks his arms playfully and shies

G: For now you need to just be satisfied with this apple

M: You packed so much; were you frighten that this time also you may get into some trouble.

G: No I was pretty sure that you could manage without my navigation

M: You think I couldn’t have managed the earlier; you are forgetting that I am Maan Singh Khurana.

G: yes yes how could I forget my MSK

Flash back

M: Geet you take your hand bag and sit in the car, I will get the remaining bags & then we can start

G: Okay

Once settled in the car

M: Now tell me how to reach the village

G: How am I supposed to know that?

M: Simple type raksurnagar in this map navigator it will show you the way; guide me accordingly then we can reach our destination

G: Is that so simple; give me I will do it

M: All yours

G: Now you need to drive towards west for about 50 kms to reach the outskirts of the city then 85 kms from there we need to take left in the highway after about 70 kms we will get sonurpur there we need to take state highway towards right then after 95 kms to next left to get marinenoor from there raksurnagar is just 50 kms. From there I think you can call Adi for the exact house address

M: So let’s start the journey

G: Maan you have never been to that place before

M: Nopes, Why are you asking?

G: I was actually thinking what all places are there nearby so that we can visit those places on the way. We may not get the chance to explore around

M: Yes you are right but the problem is we are having a tight schedule. But I promise we will take you everywhere you wish for.

G: Pakka wala promise na

M: Yes darling 100% promise. Now smile; tell me which way I have to take

G: Right, you need to take right here

M: okay

G: Maan we will reach before evening right

M: why are you scared of travelling in night?

G: No actually this map shows that we will have to go through forest area so was just being little tensed.

M: Don’t worry its just 350 kms drive that means if I drive with a speed of 100 km/hr then we can reach in 4hrs only

G: Even I thought so that’s why I packed lightly. Only some clothes and necessary items

M: Clothes, you could have kept fewer sets only; once we reach the cottage we might not require many

Geet shied and turned deep red getting the idea of her husband’s trip plan.

G: Maan, this is not updating our location.

M: Thats normal; might be the network is weak. Once the network is back it will update the location

G: Oh is it. So it works through GPS and requires mobile network connection

M: Yes, Geet which way I should take now

G: Left

After driving for some time Maan stops the car

G: What happened, why you stopped it?

M: Let’s just lean back for some time, you must be feeling cramped sitting at one place for a long time.

G: Oh…what’s the time now?

M: its 7 now

G: So we will reach in an hour or so; but now we will pass through the forest area right.

M: Yes but you said it’s only a small stretch. Once we cross that we will get network then we can call up Adi.

G: Is there lion in that area

M: Not only lion but lioness also

G: how do you know that, you only told you have not been to this village?

M: It is forest biwi lion will be there. Why are you getting scared we are not going by walk that it will come and eat us but in car, nothing will happen come let’s start before the night starts

G: Yes we need to cross this sooner the better

While crossing this stretch…

G: Maan I am getting scared, there isn’t much vehicle moment also here, no lights what if some thief’s or some criminals dwell here and try to stop us here. It’s so thick forest there.

Same time they hear a growl from the forest

G: Maan see there are deadly animals too. They may attack us.

M: Geet when I am here why are you getting afraid. Nothing bad will happen we are near the forest area so lights will be less and we are near villages so off course vehicular moments will be minimal and as far as thief’s are considered; did you write them a letter stating you are coming here and to rob from you and you are in a car secured so forget all your fears. See we entered the next village so now there is no reason to be dread for.

G: Uff…finally I can take my breath peacefully, while coming back we will leave at morning hours.

M: Okay tell me in which village we are?

G: Now we are in marinenoor

M: You got the signal

G: Yep we have

M: Let me give him a call

Maan gives a call to Adi

A: Hello sir, where have you reached, we all are waiting for you sir

M: we are at marinenoor;

A: Marinenoor (confused) where does that comes sir?

M: I think it must be about 50 kms away from your village.

A: One second sir hold on I will check with my dad

Dad …how to reach here from marinenoor

A’s Dad: Marinenoor even I don’t know there is no village nearby with that name

A: But our sir has reached that place and is asking me how to reach here

A’s Dad: How did they reach there

A: Let me ask them;

A: Sir how did you reach there

M: we drove towards about 50 kms to reach the outskirts of the city then 85 kms from there we took left in the highway after about 70 kms we got sonurpur there we took state highway towards right then after 95 kms to next left to got marinenoor from there raksurnagar is just 50 kms.

A: Sir Its not raksurnagar but raksarnagar to reach here you had to left from sonurpur there you had to come interiors till you reach morenoor from there raksarnagar is just 20 kms away

M: What are you saying we have taken the wrong route? Your card has raksurnagar address only

A: No sir its raksarnagar in the card

M: I am not blind; let me reach there then I will show your card.

Geet had tears hearing this

G: Maan I am getting scared, this is a deserted place no one is there to help us here

M: Wait Geet be patient we will get out of this too

G: Ji

M: Adi now tell me how we have to reach your place

A: Sir you will have to come back around 100 kms to reach sonurpur from there another 120 kms to our place.

M: But it’s already late. Will that be safe to drive such a long distance at this time?

A: Sir you are right it’s not safe to drive. Give me some time sir I will call you back soon

M: Okay Adi call back soon. Geet we have to drive back almost half the way

G: Maan I don’t want to go back to that forest again at this time of the night

M: Let’s just wait for Adi’s call

Adi calls back

M: Yes Adi

A: Sir my in-laws cousin brother’s friend’s cottage is in raksarnagar. They have spoken to them and arranged for the accommodation there. You can rest for the night there then if you leave tomorrow early morning then you can reach here by the ceremony sir.

M: Okay. Just guide me the way

A: Sir I have asked them to pick you up as its dark and you may get lost in that way. They will be there in about 15 mins.

M: Good.

M: Geet we will stay at the cottage here then morning we will leave to raksarnagar no raksurnagar.

G: But it’s so near to the forest.

M: Don’t worry its safe here. Let’s listen to some music you will feel better

jungle hai aadhi raat hai lagane lagaa hai dar

duniyaa ko bhul jaa_un kuchh aisi baat kar

darane vaali kyaa baat hai jab saath me hai dilabar

aajaa meri baaho me so jaa rakh ke sar

haa_y jungle hai aadhi raat

dil me kyaa hoti hai halachal

betaabi chhaa_i hai palapal

gaalo ki ragat lu

le le o mai to yahi chaahati hun

tanhaa_i kaa aalam taare bhi so_e hai

ham bhi ik duje ki chahat me kho_e hai

baahar mausam sardi kaa kyun garmi hai adar

haa_y jungle hai aadhi raat

tujhe paagal mai kar dun kar de

aagosh me bhar lun bhar le

haa_y sine se lag jaa_un lag jaa

ho ye lo sanam aa ga_i

ho aankh to khuli hai lekin tum so ga_i ho

jaanataa hun mai tum divaani ho ga_i ho

ham dono aaj akele ko_i bhi naa ghar par

jungle hai aadhi raat

Geet mouth opens as O as she is shocked to hear this song while Maan starts to laugh

Flashback ends
M: Geet are at sonurpur, which way you want me to take left or right.

G: Right. We are going for Adi’s wedding

M: how about a tour in forest

G: No forest trip’s

M: Are you sure you don’t want to

G: Some other time

 

Flashback again

After about 15 mins Ramu comes to show the way towards the cottage

G: This is so big, does anyone else also stays here

R: No madam, no one stays here the landlord rents out this cottage for the tourist who comes to visit the nearby places.

M: Can you show us the room we better take rest, it’s already too late

R: Yes sir, this way

Both enter the room to have some peaceful nap

R’s wife: Where did you go at this time of night and who are they

R: Badesabji had called earlier saying that they have reached here wrongly

R’s w: But tomorrow guests are arriving

R: They will leave tomorrow morning, you don’t have to bother them nor will they bother you

R’s w: My work increases now, I will have to redo all the cleaning & you will not even help me.

R: Let’s see that tomorrow

In the room

G: Maan what is that sound

M: Nothing must be a small lizard

G: Lizard . I am not staying here

M: Geet what will it do, it’s just a small creature

G: Still that ugly and even scary too

M: Why do you get scared with such small things? Come I will hid you from all these scary things

G: You are sure right

Geet just snuggled into Maan, while his hands started make patterns on her to relax her and then both started to explore one another

Morning they start to raksurnagar & once they reach at venue

A: Goood Morning Sir.

M: Adi what is all this; see this card it is says raksarnagar

A: Siiir Look the print is not proper in your card sir; it’s is just your bad luck

M: What you can’t you see it properly before you give it to us.

A: I am really sorry for this sir

M: Adi you are saved only because today is your engagement

G: Maan It happens, he didn’t do that purposefully and if I had a kadus boss like you then I wouldn’t have even picked up your calls too

M: Geeet

Geet just giggles while Adi gives his signature laugh

G: Adi what are you doing here won’t you want to get engaged

A: Yes maam, please join us

Everyone gather around the stage to tease and bless the new couple on their new phase of the life.

M: Geet come we will leave to the cottage

G: Let me just pack all the things

M: I will help you

Both move towards there next destination the cottage

G: Maan you are not driving

M: No Geet I need rest well for the long daaay ahead

Geet turns red with his comment

G: Maan you know the way towards the cottage now don’t tell me we have to rely upon this navigator

M: No I had asked Adi to book the cottage as he knows the places around

G: What is there around the cottage?

M: some plantations a camping site & a small falls too

G: wow that’s cool we can play in water and enjoy

M: If that’s cool I know ways to keep you warm & we are going to enjoy

G: Maan see outside, I have never seen such beautiful nature awww…you know I love nourishing plants but in this busy city life I can’t give much time to them See those flowers that yellow one and that red one too .. See that tree is covered by those flowers in another 2 weeks it will be full of juicy fruits…

M: Geet Geet calm down.. We will see all these first let’s have some food in cottage

G: Wow you made my day

Saying so she just pecked him and he was lost in his bubbly child women in front of him. Once they reached the cottage Geet came out and was shocked to see the same cottage where they came last night

G: Maan this is the same place.

M: Yes

G: You changed our booking

M: Wanted to relive last night

G: We could have relived it in that cottage too but when did we cross the forest I didn’t even notice it

M: ha ha ha you were busy in appreciating the mother nature my cutie pie

G: That means the forest was not at all there just my fear of darkness made me think we are in forest uff…

M: Yes my sonna

G: You knew you all along she made a grumpy face

M: Except the wrong name of the village yes. I thought Adi had booked the cottage in his village itself but he didn’t and about the forest thing yes I knew that too

G: You were teasing me and I was getting scared simple

M: You see when you get scared you come to me without any encumbrance

G: You are gone today

M: I love this lioness too. So be it anyways I am wining. Come let’s go to our den

G: Den?

M: Where the lion is busy with his lioness

Maan lifts Geet in his arms close to his chest and walks into their Den.

Flashback ends

M: Geet we have reached and you are still lost…remembering our fun.

G: Yes, come let’s get in. See Adi is coming here

A: How are you sir, maam; you reached here without any …

M: Adi ..we are here right..now tell me all set to surrender

A: yes sir ready to sacrifice my freedom.. he he he. Enjoy yourselves sir, functions will be starting in a while

M: Sure Adi. All the best.

M: Geet we are spending whole week here.

G: Whole week ..but you said you a important meeting so we have to leave as soon as the wedding is done.

M: Yes very very important person of my life baby with my lioness in our den. Be ready

 

-Jeevana-

Love N Its Entry In My Life – Part 9

PART 9

Geet entered her room and had a big smile on her face she was enjoy her importance in other’s life, how he gave priority to her over his works, bechare unke staff kitna sataya sabko looks like babaji muhj par mehar ban ho rahi hai…bus mera dil na todo babaji. Don’t know how he just made his place in my heart, how much I tried to escape from him but his attention, love & understanding me even before I tell him. How many times I was ready to give up but he didn’t he stood as a support which I always carved for.

Rafta rafta haule haule dil ko churaaya tumne

Dil ko to pata bhi na chala

Chori chori chupke chupke jaadu jagaaya tumne

Dil ko to pata bhi na chala

Kabhi haan, kabhi na hum karte rahe

Chhupke aahein bhi bharte rahe

Dekhte dekhte yeh kya ho gaya

Na na na na na na na…

***

 Maan entered his room remembering how his day passed and a sweet smile adored his face; what better than the sweet call from her & all the hurry burry in the office to finish up the work for the date; he takes the card in his hand from his bag, the excuse for her surprise visit to know me & the date …haye she can’t stop herself from talking always cribbing something or the other. She is affectionate, shy & reserved at the same time. Has so many secrets; totally natural, honest too and easily angered. Hardly shows emotions to others. She tends to bottle up feelings. Quite observant and assesses others amazingly.

First time I saw her when she was engrossed in her project CD retrieval; all lost in her work, bit frustrated bit determined to achieve; those eyes had so much hidden in it. A small curve of the lip indicating the success of achieving the desired held me captive. I didn’t even realised how much I was lost in those eyes which concealed something so strong that I couldn’t stop myself from discovering them. And when they were awarded for their efforts on the stage I could see her glimpse again. I couldn’t understand why I felt like losing myself in those eyes. But just gathered myself & brush away those thoughts.

Rafta rafta haule haule dil ko churaaya tumne

Dil ko to pata bhi na chala

Raaton mein ab tera sapna mujhko aata hai, haan

Ek angdaayi ek bechaini deke jaata hai

Teri aankhon ka main deewaana hoon

Tere honton ka main peimaana hoon

Tu yeh jaane na

Na na na na na na na…

And when my parents started there hunt for bahu; I was reminded of those eyes..  Just wish to see them again and hoped to be my destiny. But god was with me…after sometime I did see her profile online in the matrimony site. Even my dad & mom were also impressed with her simplicity and also with her family background. My mom’s friend had been to her sister wedding & was all praising her for how she took care of all the responsibilities. Things were going on a smooth track until we visited her place to see her. She had so much wanted me to tell no for this marriage but how I could let go of her, I just couldn’t grant her this wish. She was looking so cute that day. And very sensitive too… How she was crying for losing in a game; I was so restless seeing her in that condition but still strong enough to rise again, she just need a little distraction & her little surprise today just made my day. I may just wish to have her all day & night, he hit his head think he has already started dreaming about them. The twinkle in her eyes while we were together, that curve of your lips when she says’s my name.

***

Rafta rafta haule haule dil ko churaaya tumne

Dil ko to pata bhi na chala

Is pehlu mein, is daaman mein mujhko rehna hai

Dard judaai ka ek pal bhi ab na sehna hai

Meri yaadon mein jaane jaan tu hai

Meri saanson mein teri khushboo hai

Tu hi meri jaan

Na na na na na na na…

***

Still we need to wait for another 2 months for the wedding. How are we going to survive this wait? ab to har pal uski ka intezzar hai ..kab woh is ghar maine meri biwi banke ayegi … har pal uska saath hoga … is jaan main woh baseygi.

*

Yeh job hi hai bohat hi kubsarat sa hai…chaiye yeh sapna ho ya hakikat…I want to leave in this kal kya hoga kisne dekha hai …par aaj jab muhje unki itni attention mil rahi hai tho mihje isme hi jeena hai ..is ehaasas maine ko jana chati hoon

***

Rafta rafta haule haule dil ko churaaya tumne

Dil ko to pata bhi na chala

Chori chori chupke chupke jaadu jagaaya tumne

Dil ko to pata bhi na chala

Kabhi haan, kabhi na hum karte rahe

Chhupke aahein bhi bharte rahe

Dekhte dekhte yeh kya ho gaya

Na na na na na na na…

***

Raji: Geet..  Geet …kaha ho..bol bhi..abhi se Maan ki kayalo maine doob gayi kya

G: aap yaha kya kar rahe ho…javo aapko sab yaad kar rahe honge…saying so she just showed her back

R: kyu naraz hai muhj se…coming in front of her

G: aur nahi tu kya main kushse nachungi…turned away again

R: acha baba sorry…aab tho baath karle muhjse..while taking Geet’s hand in her

G: waise aapko main yaad bhi hoon kya..itne din hogaye aapne apni behan ko kabhi yaad hi nahi kiya saying so she pouted…

R: ole meri baby ..tuhje kaise bhoolongi…tu tho meri jadoo ki chadi hai jo meri sari problems ko door baga deti thi

G: acha tho ab kya problem hai

R: bohat badi problem hai…meri choti behan naraz hai ..to bol kaise manaye use

G: magar main to choti bachi hoon na…muhje kya pata she started to move out

R: arey ab tho teri shaadi ho jaye gi ..uski baad thodi yese nakre koi sahega..running behind her

G: tho hume bade hone main sirf 6 mahine lagte hai kya

R: sorry kaha na..phir se nahi kahoongi ki … kuch bhi teri samaj ki bahar ki baath nahi hai meri maa…oops meri behan …ab tho kuch bathe karle humse..

G: teek hai is baar maf kiya …

R: bol bhi de kaise hai…kya kabar hai Maan ki…aaj milne gayi thin a

G: haan gayi thi..

R: tho

G: tho kya…aap bhi tho jate the jiju se milne tab

R: teek hai mat bol…kabhi moo nahi kolti hai tu..while Geet shows her tongue

G: Oye meri di… dyaan rakh koi gadbad na kar…sare arrangements ko samal na hai tuhje … babaji madat karna meri is behan ka…muhje kuch sikayat ka mauka na dena warna main thuje dekh longi haan…

R: haan meri pyaari behan dyaan rakungi …ok

G: waise di thoda darr lag raha hai

R: Tuhje aur darr … starts laughing

G: Kyu uska patent apne karvake rahka hai kya

R: bus thoda sa waqt de … sab teek hojayega… naya ghar naya mahol hoga… bohat sare risthe dar ek saath milenge .. And I am sure you are strong enough to handle everything single hand…bus apna kayal rahkna na bol jana

G: agar kuch gadbad hogayi tho

R: aapne patidev se bol de..tu kab se meri tara hone lagi…

G: jab se aap muhje bhool gayi

R: main nahi bhool bus thoda priorities badal gayi

G: maine aap ko bohat miss kiya…jab se aapki shaadi hogayi haina ..main bohat zyaada akhele hogayi …she showed her hands wide

R: tu ek pal maine choti aur dusre pal main badi kaise behave karti hai…yeh apni aadat haina use badal le… sasural main log haansengi ki bache ko bidda kar laye hai

G: janti hoon…muhje aap gyaan na do jo maine aapko diya tha …

R: Chal aaja soja… bohat sari planning karni hai kal se…

G: Okay Gn…

Love N Its Entry In My Life – Part 8

PART 8

M: Hello

G: GM

M: Geet …You are alright .. So early you are awake?

G: Thought I should surprise you

M: Offcourse I am. How are you feeling now?

G: Much better and thank you for hearing me out last night; that really helped me

M: You don’t have to thank me

G: Can we meet up today

M: Today … ok why not

G: You seem to be busy right

M: No … its ok I can reschedule it

G: Ok if you can then let’s meet up at xyz place

M: Done; bye

M: How am I going to accommodate my schedule? And If I won’t she might feel bad and again left out. I thought of completing as much as possible work to ensure I have enough time for my wedding. Think Think…let me first go to office then I will somehow reschedule it

In Maan’s Office

M: Adi.. Why is this file not complete; it was supposed to be ready for tomorrow’s presentation?

A: Siiir..You had to check and finalise the things Siiir… I have completed as much as I can

M: Don’t give me reasons

A: Siiir you were busy and you usually see these files a day before the presentation and complete it too na siiir

M: Adi…out now and get all the files in my cabin which needs to be reviewed

A: Yesss Sirrr…Runs from there

Pinky :  Adi Sir …Why are you carrying so many files all at once

A: Don’t know what has happened Sirr is in not so good mood…Let me give him these 1^st set of files …by the time I will try completing the remaining files too

P: Shall I help you

A: You take care of the reception; if Maan sir comes to know that you left your desk he may shout on you too

P: Ok Adi sir..

Maan’s Cabin

A: Siiir  files

M: Keep it n leave

A: Yes Siiir

A: What happened to sir…He wants to finish all days work in half a day.  Don’t know how many will come under his anger today

At Reception

P: How may I help you Ms.

Lady: I am here to meet Mr. MSK

P: Do you have an appointment

L: No. I just had to get these papers verified by him

P: Maam Give it to me I will hand over the same to him

L: Well these are urgent private & confidential documents

P: Well He wouldn’t meet any without appointment maam

L: Ok. I will be waiting here

P: Sure Maam

Maan’s Cabin

P: Excuse me sir

M: Yes Pinky; what is it?

P: Sir. A lady is here with these documents for your verification

M: Keep it here & leave. Will call you afterwards

P: Ok sir.

At Reception

P: Maam you need to wait for a while Sir will call

L: Ok can I have some water

P: Sure I will arrange it

L: Thanks dear

Adi comes there all worried

P: Adi sir ..why are you so worried

A: I am in a fix pinky I thought I can finish these reports while sir checks the other parts of the report but now I am struck at a place.

P: Where sir tell me …  I may help

A: Pinky I need to calculate the revenue from each sites according to the standards but problem is…on …on …on … I am not able to consolidate it

P: what are you saying Adi sir.. I am not able to understand anything

A: Its better I ask the help of sir.

L: Hey If you could just go one by one then you could calculate  the revenue from each site then consolidate it but you just have to keep control on the figures so you don’t miss out any in middle…

A: really

L: I can do it for you

A: Please help me na…today Sir is in very much hurry ..he wants everything in double speed

In about an hour the lady completes the work & Adi takes them to Maan’s Cabin

A: Sir the remaining set of files

M: I was about to ask you them. Good you came in right time. Let me review them

A: Yes Sir

M: Good Adi you did these completed & that too without any mistake

A: Sir actually I took help from one of the visitor you have.

M: Who ?

A: Sir Pinky told me that she is here for those documents verification

M: Adi how could you take help of any outsider … Is she still here … send her in

A: Yes sir.

A: In my tension I didn’t realise it. Oh No..

M: what are these documents? …

There is a knock on the door. Lady & Adi comes in

M: Yes come in

L: You wished to see me

M: Why are you here? What are these documents?

L: Look yourselves

The moment he sees the documents he has a sweet smile on his face

A: Am I dreaming Maan sir smiling in this kind of a situation 

M: You came to give me this draft of our wedding card

A: What wedding card draft… whose wedding Sir?

M: Adi you can leave.

A: Yes sir

A: good yaar …today I thought I am gone but thanks to that lady I am saved but who is she?

M: That was a lovely surprise

G: My guess was right; you were busy then why didn’t you tell me in the morning

M: I didn’t wanted you to feel left out

G: Don’t worry I am used to it now.. It’s just a passing phase.. Anyways I would have been normal in morning.

M: You change faster than chameleon

G: Yes I do. I don’t want to lose hope so I not stopping my efforts to pull back myself from any gravy worry.

M: Thanks you helped Adi to complete my reports

G: Anytime

M: I told you …you are good in what you do

G: I am glad I could… and it’s nothing in front what you did for me last night.  Be ready for these kinds of situations in future too

M: Really, We were supposed to meet today na, then you could have given this at that time only

G: It was just an excuse.

M: Excuse

G: I didn’t want to miss my date. You see

M: I wouldn’t have let go this either

G: But with the work load you were managing; poor your staffs were cursing for hurrying up at the last moment.

M: I had to be with my date so was rescheduling the work & If they had not able to finish it I would have comeback after the date

G: Can we leave now.. I am really very hungry

M: You didn’t had your lunch

G: I was busy in making my date free

M: Ok let’s have something first then we can decide on the next plan for the day

G: Please

Both move out of the office.

P to A: Adi sir, who was she?

A: No idea Pinky but must be someone special

P: What’s her name?

A: Geet … uff how can I forget.. She is his fiance & she was here to give the wedding card draft

P: Oh yes …even I was wondering how come sir went out so early.

A: She is good in work too; she completed that work in just an hour even Sir would have taken more time; if she joins office, it would be nice to work with her.

Love N Its Entry In My Life – Part 7

PART 7

G: Hello …yawns…hello

M: GM …all set for the day

G: whaaat…yes all set …and get backs to her sleep

M: Geet

G: yes..

M: get up I know you are still sleeping

G: You know it good…then let me sleep na

M: It’s already late

G:  5 mins

M: Geet I won’t fall for that again. You will repeat the same as last time

G: No this time I will get up

M: you know …you can’t fool me twice with same thing

G: Ok..

M: How are you placed today?

G: Well plenty of work in office, the project report has to be ready today & after office we are going for the family get together party. I am damn excited and will have full on masti there

M: What all masti?

G: I don’t know about the plans but last time we played and had a blast

M: ok. So when can we meet

G: My dear would be we are still only engaged so have patience. Waise anything special to meet

M: You need something to meet

G: Actually no but still if you have a reason then I don’t have to search one

M: Reason?

G: Yes reason, I need to answer to my parents

M: You tell them everything

G: I just inform them, where I am?

M: Aren’t you getting late?

G: Oh yes…thank you for waking up..waise what are you doing?

M: Just preparing one of the report

G: Multitasking..hmm ..do one at a time..bye ..n Happy morning

M: Good morning bye

G: Geet get ready faster …have plentyof work in Office ..the faster you finish the more you can enjoy

Geet’s Office:

G’s Boss: Geet we will have to stay back little late as we will have to finish the reporting.

G: Yes

G’s B: Ok you start reviewing all the aspects then we both will finalise one by one.

G: Review will take half day then completing the report finalisation & submitting them would take all time. And I will get late for the party

GB: Geet are you done with review

G: I am still doing it

GB: I will start some of the aspects and you start submitting once one aspect is finalised

G: Ok.

By evening

GB: How many left

G: Still 4 are there

GB: Ok let do it asap

G: down goes the drain all my party

GB: Why there is a difference in the figures. Geet did you check this

G: No I haven’t reached till that list

GB: Ok let me check with xyz (employee) mean while you finish the remaining

G: Yes

By the time everything gets complete its 8 and Geet reaches the party venue all tired from the day’s work and once the party is over comes back to their home by 12:30. And she retires to bed and her mobile rings

M: Hey .. You didn’t call me …how was the party

G: Hi

M: What happened you sound low .. are you crying..Geet  Geet

G: Nothing I am fine

M: You can’t hide it now speak up …you didn’t tell me how the party was

G: Very bad

M: Why

G: I was all tired in office itself and late too so directly reached the venue and was having a head ache too first we had food then started to play first we started to play pass the parcel and to my bad luck I was the first to be out of the game and you know my jiju even pulled up his mobile to record as I was asked to dance for the music played then when I couldn’t think of any then they said at least sing a song for us I couldn’t think of any. I was just blank. And my sis Raji was in very hurry wanted to finish the party and go home so she asked me to hurry up hurry up …you can just do a step and leave …why are you thinking so much . Finally giving up everyone asked me to forget it & continued with their game.

M: Then

G: then my mood was off

M: It happens dear there is nothing to cry about in this

G: You know that’s what I am feeling there is nothing to cry but don’t know why but tears are not stopping from my eyes. I am not crying for losing it in first round, I am used to losing but because I was blank & the way my sister left me …she could have helped me by atleast suggesting a song but no ..none came for my rescue …Just left me their… saying as a spoil sport.

G: I don’t know why my heart aches. What if my heart is not able to accept you and end up hurting you? You just say no and let’s call this marriage off. I can never be happy nor keep anyone happy. I could not be satisfied so easily my high dreams and expectations makes me carve for more& in turn just destroying my present & future too. You just call this off.

Started to cry more.

M: Shh calm down dear; don’t think like that they don’t know that you were so much tired. Are you still feeling tired

G: Not much .. just a nap will be enough

M: Don’t cry now. So if you were fine what would have done?

G: If I was fine then I would have danced on any music. You know many a times I will be swaying to some or the other song. I tho love to dance & I will always be murmuring songs. For this situation I have a song too now  

Haye rama yeh kya huva

tum yese hume satha ne lage

Tum itni pyari ho samane

Humari madat kyu na karsahke

Actually I have many romantic and sad songs in my playlist. How can I sing them that too in front of my parents or even before all the relatives? I want to be safe from all criticism but ended up being one.

M: You know how to dance

G: Well have never gone to any classes but I just love to dance. When no one is there in home na I will put music and start dancing following the steps in the video.

M: Your sis knows about your liking

G: yes she knows my interest in dance. That’s why she was saying just put a step n go. But I want it everything precisely, so if the song is playing then dance should be according to that. Not just some steps and getting embarrassed in front of everyone for not knowing how to dance.  Actually I want everyone to know I can dance well but in a dream to make it large I end up being nothing.

M: You shouldn’t take any decision in haste.

G: If you get married to me then you will have so many of these incidents. You will be busy in work and I will just be crying

M: What if I won’t let to face any situation like this again.

G: Please if you can do that then I will be the happiest person in this world.

M: Then you will be Geet it’s quite late too …and you sleep peacefully too now GN

G: GN and thanks for being there for me.

Love N Its Entry In My Life – Part 6

PART 6

Ring Ring…

G : hello ..hello hello…bolna nahi tho call kyu karthe ho ..

M: Geet ro kyu rahi ho..

Thud line goes dead..

M: why is she not picking my call ..Geet come on pick my call..let me send sms …

Geet pick my call ..we can talk this over…

G: There is nothing left to talk …

M: just listen to me once..

G: I don’t have a voice to speak …give me some time to accept this and then I will be listening to you till my last breath

M: Can we meet up once

G: No

M: why …don’t you want to know why I accepted you

G: I don’t want to know anything

M: you are testing my patience now.

G: so ..you didn’t listen to me now it’s your turn

M: when did I not listen to you …

G: then what was that when you accepted for marriage …this is last msg as my balance is zero ..bye

M: Geet …don’t give lame excuses

M: Geet …reply back…

M: It’s not done …At least pick my phone na

M: Ok…so you don’t have balance na..I will recharge it now…then will you reply back??

G: No you are not going to recharge it

M: so that’s what need to get your reply

G: i had dozed dozed off and mama woke me up saying not to miss your calls

M: so sweet of sansumaa

G: rahko sabko apne paas aura muhje bhool jaoo..

M : do I smell something burning

G: Don’t make this more difficult …pls let me be alone

M: Meet me once at pqr cafe at 3 …we can clear this off

G: I am not coming anywhere …we can talk over phone itself

M: ya like now …by not picking my call

G: I told you my voice is choked

M: that was all fine sometime ego Geet…

G: when something really hurts you can’t speak

M: and why did say your balance is zero ..you have msg me after that too

G : 95 free sms after first 5 daily

M: so you can message me unlimited

G: today is off so I am doing or else I wouldn’t

M: get ready now

G: I am not coming ..look we are not even engaged how can we meet and I wouldn’t be comfortable speaking in a public place

M: So where do you want to talk tell me

G:  over phone

M : face to face

G: skype

M: no we will meet

G: forget it

M: ok skype come online now

G: ok message me your id

G: tell me I am all yours now

M: Look I have started a new venture which requires my attention which means I will have plenty of pressure in work and I will not be able to give you enough time.

G: superb news I am so happy to hear this …yeh tho sone pe suhaga hai.first you will marry me n then you want to wait day and night for your return …maine aapka kya bigada hai Jo is thara muhje saatha raheho

M: care to hear me fully

G: ok let’s have the cherry on the cake

M: you can join me in work too so my work will finish faster and we will have time for each other too. In this way you can have me all time with you. one of your problem is solved

G: You could have hired anybody else to help you reduce this so called pressure of yours and why didn’t you tell me this before.

M: Time dear time you didn’t give me that. You and your ram katha had to be heard too na [Smirk’s]

G: To tell what I want is not ram katha

M: Ok let me come to the point. Geet I wished to marry a girl who can be my companion both professional and also personally. And as far as professional is concerned I have seen your work and dedication towards perfection. Remember the last year conference; you did a marvellous job Geet.

G: How do you know that as I never gave any presentation? I only work in back drop

M: You were the one who prepared the presentation again when the CD was burnt coz of short circuit.

G: That was not a big deal I had the previous version in my mail and with small amendments, the presentation was again ready within time.

M: So I got to know that was you behind the scene. And on personal front you are good looking, smart, think about others before you. What else do you think is required? You fit in perfectly.

G: I fit in but what about my requirements.

M: Simple Geet you wanted me to at every step and you will have me on both fronts.

G: Look you never had to convince me for this marriage in time I would have accepted if it wasn’t you then it would have been some tom dick or harry but I am really glad to know that you are making efforts in making me understand. And I am ready for this marriage. It has to happen in future then why not now.

M:         tum har pal badalthi ho geet

tumare saath kal kya honewala hai koi nahi janta

G: Well change is the only thing constant in life, so it isn’t me but everything changes every minute, as far as future is concerned you don’t have neither Michelle Jennings nor Rohit mehra to have built future predicting machine. So it’s unknown to everyone.

M: who are they  ??

G: You don’t see movies. Do you.

M: No.

G: Then leave its all fiction

M: You are ok now. No more crying stuff.

G: What do you think ??

Love N Its Entry In My Life – Part 5

PART 5

Mama: Geet ladhke wale agayi hai  tayar haina tu

Geet: Haan mama tayar hoon

M: Tho chal ladke ko dehk le

Geet: Namaste ji

After some formal talks

Papa: Beta aap aur Geet baath karlo…Geet aapne kamre main leja puttar

G: Ji

Ladka & Geet moves to her room

L: Hi

G: Hi

They both remain silent for sometime thinking how to begin,  

G: Is this your first time

L: No had a quite few interviews already, and yours

G: More than quite a few now.

L: Oh..So what do you say about us

G: Well I …I …don’t want to marry …

L: 😮 what, then why are you here

G: This is my house

L: I meant why are your parents want to get you married off

G: I couldn’t say no to them

L: You are scared of them

G: Yes & No

L: What

G: when I was a kid I was scared…and now I am used to it so can’t say no to them …but that does not mean I accept whatever they ask for .. kithni waqt tak taal sahkthi hoon taal dethi hoon…Even then If I had to do it, then I will do it

L: Oh..why don’t you want to get married?

G: I don’t feel I can take care of anyone& marriage is a big responsibility.

L: Really, Whom are you fooling? You are in a very good position in the company and you are scared of responsibilities 😮

G: :-\ Good position .. You fell for that ha ha..I am working in my Jiju’s Office and I hold that postion not b’coz of my ability its coz of the relation i share with them

L: Even then you are handling things with ease and that for such a long period …Its not a joke

G: Yes I am just lucky enough to survive it.

L: Still I don’t think that’s the real reason

G: But it is One of the reason

L: So you have more

G: I can give 1000’s of reasons

L: Over confidence

G: Call it anyways. I am not going to say yes.

L: You can share atleast some of them

G: But I don’t want to share any…when I do that I feel helpless and I have not intensions to let my guards off

L: You don’t like to share things.

G: When I cannot share my thoughts, how can you expect me to share my life?

L: Share it you may feel better, give it a try. Who knows maybe I can give a solution.

G: Why are you showing so much interest in me? What do you see in me that we can be together?

L: Our parents think we will make a good pair; I just want to give it a try.

G: I am not a show piece up for trial

L: Hey relax..you get angry soon

G: I’m sorry

L: Its ok.

G: I always wanted someone who will be there for me everywhere every step of my life, you see I am one confused girl who gets confused in her own world and I want someone who can lead my way so that I can just blindly follow. I just want to surrender myself you see. I am really very demanding and I wouldn’t be able to live my life alone. And coming to you, you are very busy person handling so many things and I will just be a burden to you. Will you take care of your work or me? That’s too much to ask for.

L: so that’s what you expect from your future. You could have told me earlier itself  

G: So you are saying no right

L: Let me just think over it, and you don’t know anything about me too. Aren’t you curious to know?

G: If you want to you can, I wouldn’t stop you

L: As you said I am a busy in my work if I start working I will forget about every other thing around me. And I want someone who can care for me and my family, one who could just blend in our family like her own family. Straight forward, be my side at every ups and downs of mine. Not behind my money or fame.

G: I am not your girl man. If I decide on one thing it’s hard for me to compromise on that and even some how I did we cannot be happy in our lives

L: You are ready to give up

G: Its simple yes or no, there is no other option of try out. If tomorrow we end up as a couple I will make every effort to make this work, to live upto your expectation and I may not complain either to you but that doesn’t mean I wouldn’t have any problem in doing all these things I will be cribbing to myself and when my patience breaks I will end up hurting everyone including myself, which I seriously don’t want too.

L:  hey cool down, You said you had lot more than few interviews, then have you talked about these things to everyone.

G: Actually, I haven’t as not many showed interest in me and the one who showed had high expectation from this marriage which my family cannot afford to, so everything was just a dead end. But you are a stubborn man.

L: How did you know that I am interested in you?

G: Well when you came in I saw you were struggling to talk, and I thought its your 1^st time but you said it isn’t. Then it was clear to me you are genuinely here for this thing not just putting a mask of interested and all. And you are from rich class so wouldn’t be behind any dowry or my salary.

L: You thought about all these things in just few minutes

G: Yes, I have seen my siblings weddings and had quite a few experience in my previous trials and I come across many people, I may not be an expert but not even ignorant of these facts. I have always been interested in knowing others things.  And we learn things from others only right we don’t have to time for experiencing everything on our own. I think we should go back. And please say no to this marriage.

L: Let’s see on that. It’s really nice meeting you, you are really different.

G: Who said I am normal as everyone. Shall we move?

Back to family

Papa : Arey aap dono agayi

L (Mama) : Come beta sit here. Talk with us too

G: Ji aunty

L(M) : tho beta aapko kya kya atha hai humbhi batho

G: Ji ..zyaad kuch nahi ..thoda cooking karlethi hoon aur baki sara waqt tho mera office main hi nikal jathi hai

L(M): aap ne apni padayi puri nahi kiya abhi tak

G: Ji woh meri percentile kaam honeki wajese fail ho rahi hoon

L(M): Koi nahi puttar isbaar hojayega mera beta ki help le sahkthi hoon aap usne bhi tho katham kiya hai na. Kyu Maan aap karenge na humari bahu ki help.

Maan: Off course mama yeh bhi kuch puchne ki baath hai kya

M(M) : Tho tumari taraf se haan hai na

Maan : Yes

M(M) : Geet puttar tumari kya faisla hai

G: 😮 Itna samjaya na karne ko par yeh nahi manna. Babaji kya kar rahi ho mere saath. Nahi karni muhje kisi se bhi shaadi. Koi meri baath nahi suntan na hi koi samaj na chatha hai ki main kya chathi hoon. Sab apne faisle muhj pe thopna chatehey hai 😥 Ji woh..Mama main …

Mama: kya huva puttar

Geet runs away from there

M: Geet …Geet…Ji main abhi ayi ..lagtha hai sharma gayi

M: Geet …yesa chale athe hai kya …dehk puttar ache log hai aur unki koi demand nahi hai …na koi zimadari hai unke upar ..tu kush rahe gi …itni achi rishta haath se nahi de sahkthey puttar..

G: Par mama …

M: tu bachi nahi rahe hi geet …hum sab ki taraf se tho haan hai…tu samaj na puttar ..unki pariwar bohat achi hai…thuje palko ke upar betake rahkenge

G: Jaise aap log teek samaje :-\

M: mubharak ho puttar…main sab ko kush kabhri dekar athi hoon

G: Ahkir main wahi huva na jo main nahi chathi thi… 😥

Love N Its Entry In My Life – Part 4

PART 4: A New Hope

Why was I feeling miserable last day n shedding tears because I was feeling lonely but that is not a new thing, nothing has changed I was alone before, now and will always be. It is just another day where I was feeling low, I was breaking down in this room and couldn’t control my emotions as there was no one in front of me, but I don’t want be like this every day. How to be keep check on myself??? Yes, I am breaking down when I will be alone and no one to lean upon at that time but if I will not be alone then I don’t have to feel like this. Loneliness is not the issue it is the disappointment of not achieving anything as I am not able to mark something as mine, to tell everyone that it is done by me and these thoughts are making me weak from inside as I am suppressing all desires and failures in myself, these are affecting not only on my career but also my life big time. All these dreams seem to be a burden on me as I will never be able to achieve these, my dreams is not to reach the sky but to go beyond it. These are dreams which are not practically be achieved by me who can gain attention of everyone and still want to keep yourselves as secret. Either I have to give up the wish to gain attention or give to hold any secrets. And I choose secrets. Need to overcome this issue in hand. If someone is thirst they have to find  water and water won’t come to him on its own, likewise I don’t have to tell anyone I need them, I will just accompany them and keep myself busy so these thoughts will not invade my mind and I will control my emotions. Let me see what other options do I have to keep my mind occupied…Movies, listening songs, watching TV, reading novels but should be interesting or else my mind will start thinking all these crap.

Same time parent’s room:

Mama:Aji sunte ho …

Papa:haan bol ji kya baath hai..

M:Rajji ki tho shaadi hogayi aur ab tho sirf Geet bachi hai uski liye bhi ladke dundathe hai …Rajji aur Geet dono mein kitna farak hai Geet mein na jane kab itni maturity agayi aur Rajji ab bhi nadan hai aur tho aur Geet ne itni ache se sab kuch samal dono bhai behan ki shaadi mein patha nahi uski shaadi mein hum kaise samalenge aur humari bhi tu umar hoti chali hai jab tak hum sayi salamat hai uski bhi shaadi kar dethey hai

P:bus Geet apna woh course pura karde tho bohat achi hogi na

M:jane kyu kitne baar exam de chuki hai par abhi tak katham hi nahi huva, finals hi tho hai bus babaji kar is baar woh puri hojaye.

P:Aap teek keh rahi ho Geet ki maa…patha nahi kab tak hum sab kuch samal sahktey hai…par abhi humari halat bhi tho asi nahi ki uski shaadi karde…thodi samay tho lage ga na paise jodne mein, 2 saal mein 2 shaadi kiya hai hume aur abhi 3 key liye time lagega na.

M:Par hum ladke tho dundna shuru kar sahkte haina ji Geet Rajji jitna tho kubsurat nahi hai aur patli bhi hai aur uski chehra par tho woh pimples ke kitne marks hai, itni asani se tho ladke manenge tho nahi. Kabhi kabar tho lagtha hai jaise ek stick ko kapde pahenadiya hai. Hume tho kuch farak nahi padtha par log tho sab puchthe haina. Rajji ki waqt ki baath yaad haina aapko kitna padi lihki hai phir bhi newspaper padvaya tha un logne. Brij aur Rajji keliye humne ek saal tak dunda hai tho Geet liye abhi se shuru karde tho ache haina.

P:Haan Geet ki maa aap teek bol rahi hai par mein chatha tha Geet pehle aapni padayi tho puri karle.

M:Woh tho katam hohi jayega…tab tak hum uske liye ladka doond dete hai. Ek baar Geet se bhi baat kar hi lo.

P:Use bathaye bina hum thodi karenge..

Kuch Mahino baad…

Geet …Geet …Haan mama bolo na…tuhje dehkne keliye ladke wale arahe hai…jaldi tayar hoja …ufff…phir se…teek hai phir aap sari pehnado muhje. Tu kab seehkege…teek hai tu pehn neke kosish kar mein madat kardeti hoon…ok mama. while helping her…Geet ladka ache kandan se hai …aur bade ghar ka bhi hi.. I have to make sure this guy says no  …bade ghar ki bade bade nakre aur farmaish na baba na...Geet sun rahi hai na meri baath main tho ladke ki puri kahani sunde aur tu hai ki jawab hi nahi derahi hai..haan mama mein ne sunli…aap joav mein baaki ka karlongi…aap baaki tayariyonko dehko javo…

Love N Its Entry In My Life – Part 3

PART 3: Present

Mama… Mama… where are you…muhje dhere ho rahi hai …jaldi kuch dona kane ko…have to rush to office…screamed Geet.  Arey mein tho kab se teri liye roti banake rahki hai…jaldi kaha le aur phir box maine bhi bar le. Aur haan aaj aapne boss se chuti keliye baath karle..teri behan ki shaadi hai tuhje aur teri bhai hi sab kuch samaalna hai hum sab tho rasmo mein busy rahenge.. Haan Maa mein aaj puch longi waise kaisa tha mood would be mrs ka…from 3-4 days she has been eating my head that jiju ne phone nahi kiya…karthey bhi tho iske viva shuru karlethe hai ..aur yeh kuch puchne se pehle hi sab bhool jati hai…and the end…i am already had enough of her cribbing …Hogaya  yaa aur bhi baaki hai …ab dheere nahi ho rahi hai tuhje…teek hai maine nahi bolti…jo hona hai ..aur jaise hona hai waise hi hoga…Arey tu gussa hogayi … I don’t have to worry about you nor your bhai… I know you will manage everything…but your di I don’t how she will manage anything. Geet thought “Mama forget about the worry you never cared to know about me, so how will you even be able to help me, and when it comes to di, you have never allowed her to manage anything, if you had given her a chance she would proved n handled things with easy. She is not helpless; you guys have made her helpless” Mera BF hogaya, mein chali…bye mama…Arey Geet I forgot to tell you, your cousins are also coming early to help in wedding. Haan patha hai agle hafte arahe hai na Tej ji veerji aur Nandini mazza ayega…waise maa aaj thodi late hojayegi.

A week passed and even the wedding was completed with all the rituals, even di also went off to her in laws place and our room no ..no..my room seems to be just walls, like I have just fallen in a black hole where darkness and loneliness is engulfing me from all around. Even though it was only her presence beside me it used to at least help me to keep my emotions at check not even shed tears or even if I did it would have been only silent tears. I have always shed tears unknown to anyone; I had none with whom I could share my pains nor have any ear who could hear my talks nor any shoulder to lean upon. Parents, Siblings, Friends I have everyone but still none when I want them, I have always heard, leant my support to almost all the friends, I know many secrets of my friends but they don’t know any of mine. It is not that I never wanted to share anything with anyone it was just that I could not trust anyone with my secrets. I have always portrayed as a strong lady to the outer world never disclosed my venerable side to them, many have not even seen my tears nor they know that even I have a heart which could be hurt. I get hurt in each and every small thing which none know as I have never expressed but only suppressed deep inside me. I still remember when I was in 9^th my friend asking me do you ever cry and I had told her I do almost every day, she was shocked  … How can I forget that look on her face. This is what happens when I am alone I get lost in my own world of loneliness, someone or the other has to keep a watch on my actions and thoughts but alas when none know this secret of mine, who is going to be my side always.

What is so special in managing things in a wedding anyone can do that but my mama says you did a very good job, you didn’t let any hurdles to come in. I will never feel so great if I do things which anyone can do, my dream to do something unique, something which will differentiate it from the whole world but special is something which cannot be said in context of my life. It has always been normal may it be any part. Why am I saying this is the question I have asked myself n number of times. Only 2 things I have asked in my life that is LOVE n ATTENTION, which now I feel can happen in my dreams only.

Dreams …Just the word makes me smile, why I shouldn’t as there is no boundary or any conditions exits there. I can spread my wings as much as I want. Koi bandeshein nahi, Koi rokne wala nahi, na kise se umeed, na kise koi shikwa.

Today, when I sit looking at the setting sun remembering my life, I wait for my END. END reminds of my attempt to reach the END which I had tried and had miserable failed around 10 years back, that day I realised I don’t even have the strength to reach the END, but will have to wait till it engulfs me.

Love N Its Entry In My Life – Part 2

PART 2

Making of Present continues…

I took up Commerce, a year passed by and I don’t even know how n today I stand in front of radio hearing songs, well that’s what everyone think I am doing but I am dreaming about my future, how will that be, about my prince who will pamper me and tell me

When the world is nothing

When the ocean is dried

When the birds stop singing

When life is filled with darkness

I am there for You

If you lose your Hopes

If you are Scared

If you are Alone

If you are Worried

I am there for You

If you are Sick

If you are Depressed

If you are Tensed

If you are Irritated

I am there for you

Here are my hands

Hold it tightly

Walk along with me

Till the end of the world

For I am there for you

At times of difficult situations

Your friends may let you down

Your family may let you down

Even your beloved may let you down

But don’t worry I am there for you

(Source: Internet)

Bus kiska saath miljaye har mod pe. Zindigi haasin hojayegi…na jaane humari manzil kya hai par raaste tho yaad gaar banana hai hume…

Stop Geet …Stop …don’t think about these things now dreams are not meant to be true for you. You better concentrate on the studies you will be in 12^th TURNING POINT of your life. There is no one to stop you from doing anything. None know what you do so who can stop you, other than yourself. Be strong and reach the beyond heights. 

Around the age of 20:

I took up 2 courses together so that I can keep myself as busy as possible avoid all those questions which are unanswered. Why am I running, from what am I running, I better stop thinking these things which are answered by another question.

My morning starts with the alarm at 8. Which I turn off and just dose off again into my dream world where I dream about my life my dream life where everything starts at my wish my taste mine& only mine I still don’t understand why do I feel to mark something as mine in this world to be recognized as an individual and at the same time I protect myself in a protective shell so that none gets to know my real self why do I get nervous while addressing even a small known stage. Guess I lack in confidence.